Now I feel like dirt. During the past few months I have received (from my daughter who thought it was important) many cards and an adorable tea holder from forum friends who were concerned. As well as many private email messages. A few days ago I logged in to see well over 40 PM's and got through about 10 to realize that my swap partner for 2 swaps didn't receive anything from me. One I was sick and never completed it and the other I sent. I haven't been able to find out what happened yet. I was the co-host on 2 swaps that have come and gone, I think.

I was back and forth to Mass General many times and if I had asked hubby or daughter to check the forum they would have thought I was delirious. I was stripped of my tablet and snuck onto my son's laptop only a couple of times because I had the chance and did let forum friends know I was sick.

I couldn't and am not the type to post about every drug, symptom or test I have but I really honestly was unable to do anything more than lay down. I am the one that makes excuses to myself why I feel the way I do until I wake up in an ER which is what I did. I am still unable to drive, do laundry, garden, pretty much anything. I am now however allowed to sew but not for more than an hour and when I did for 3 hours because no one noticed I ended up sleeping for like 6 more.

I am really sorry that I have let anyone down and that was not my intent. I will make amends and never do it again no matter what it takes. I had no idea this was going to happen to me. I am really sorry and I feel bad because before I was sick I was weeks late on mailing out a gift.

I feel so bad right now because I have failed so many people lately. I have no idea where the items I have received even are besides the cards and tea holder which is adorable. My daughter will be here tomorrow afternoon and I am sure she knows because hubby has no clue. He said a few packages came for me but he told Brenna to put them away and he doesn't know where. I will find out tomorrow, have her take pictures for me and I will post them.

I am so sorry and I hope you can all forgive me.